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Name: Elisabeth
Interests: music, going for walks with my dog, traveling of any kind, friends, helping out when and where I can, tennis, spending time outside in the sunshine
Expertise: Making myself laugh
Industry: Education/Research
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AIM:  bizz829
Member Since:
8/31/2003
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| That was our social work teacher's motto for my students this past year. I said it to the kids all the time. In fact all I had to do was start it, "Slooooow down..." and they'd chime in and finish, "Stop and think!". Haha. Seems like I've not been heading my own encouragement lately because usually it results in a post and I haven't done that in quite some time. Oopsies.
Well here I am. And it's July already. Wow. There's so much stuff I thought would be accomplished and figured out by now. New promising job? Change of scenery? More funds in my bank account? Less debt? More tan on my pale skin? More miles ran? New haircut even? Hmm.... well lets see.... nope. None of the above. Yikes. Makes me feel like a slacker. It's not like I haven't been busy though. I'm real good at keeping myself busy. Just not always with the things I should be busy doing. Shoot. Busy so I don't have to think about what I really SHOULD be doing. It's just that, I'm not completely sure what that thing I SHOULD be doing is exactly... I feel like it's out there, just haven't grasped it yet. O Lord I pray I find it soon. But I really try and focus on the positive, I really do. I think that's key, it keeps you moving, in some kind of direction anyways. Even if you're not sure which way is up as long as you're moving. Maybe I ought to just sit still so I could regain my bearings. Haha, yeah right. I'm going for a walk.
Peace out homes.
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Happy Father's day to all the daddio's out there.
This is mine, he's pretty cool sometimes.
Now I'm gonna go make him some dinner.
What a good girl am I.
Peace dudes. | | |
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Today I had to get escorted out of work to my car by the cops. Some crazy man was trying to beat down the windows, (hours after closing time which was clearly posted on the door) and then trying to rip open the doors (which were locked long before, hallelujah) after seeing me in there filing and finishing up. Apparently he was very enraged when I mouthed to him that we were closed, but holy crap! What a violent fit! I have no idea what the man even could've possibly wanted to get so upset about, but I'm pretty sure I don't want to know. I'm just so glad the doors were locked and stayed that way while he was yanking on them cuz I can't imagine what would've happened if he had gotten inside. I might not have been here to be posting this. Wierd.
Needless to say I'm carrying my mace with me everywhere I go from now on. You should too.
The world is nuts out there, for shizz.
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| Hearts, candy, flowers, love in in the air right? Well these past few weeks before the big V-day just haven't seemed so "love"ly for the world around me.
Almost a month ago, on my way home from a snowboarding trip, we drove past a common shopping area with Target, Best Buy, Dicks (where I had just bought my snow-pants the night before), restaurants, etc., staring and wondering why the entire parking lot was blocked and inhabited by only police cars with lights flashing. When we unloaded back at camp we quickly heard the news, 5 people at the Lane Bryant had been shot and the gunman was, and is, still at large.
Where is the love?
A week ago, the day after Valentines day I got news of a shooting massacre at a major university attended by many of my co-workers sons, daughters, nieces and nephews. A few knew loved ones who's lives had been claimed in this absolutely incomprehensible act.
Where is the love?
A day ago I got a phone call telling me that my little brother had been robbed at gunpoint. He was just hanging out with friends, enjoying his day off of school, when three guys came into the house with guns and decided to point them at my brothers head demanding his money and things. They beat up his friend who resisted and left them all lying on the floor as they stole wallets, phones, id's, and even a pet snake.
Again I ask, where is the love?
Sometimes this world breaks my heart... But my heart is not nearly broken as it would've been to lose my brother over someone else's ignorant bullying. Even in these situations that tear my heart apart, I also find myself rejoicing that God has been so good to me and my family. I really am so blessed and so are you every time that you leave your house, or even don't, and are brought safely through the day. I think we so take for granted the lovely presence of God's watchful eyes over us all of the time, at least I know I do. So how about this? Every time you set out about your merry way, whether to work, school, shopping, or to visit a friend, always remember Who is going with you and don't forget to thank Him for always watching over you. He's got your back always.
That is some incredible kind of love, isn't it? :)
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| In his message this week my pastor talked about our ginormous desire for connection with other people. Not just making a new friend to say hi to at work or something, but a deep soul connection where you can really share your heart and your life with someone and have them care just as much about you as you do about them. I used to always think I had these crazy high standards for friendships, and that I got entirely too attached to friends I did consider my "best", but apparently I'm not as weird as I thought I was. Phew! Apparently its this innate desire of a thing that God even instilled in us for many different purposes. Well, cool beans. I always just thought I was WAY too emotional. Makes me feel a little better about myself and why I sometimes feel the way I do.
My friend of 20 something years got married this weekend. I always wondered why my heart exploded every time one of my "bosom buddies" (thank you Anne of Green Gables :) got hitched. I mean every kind of emotion I could think of spills out. Mostly nostalgia because things are never the way they were when a friend's about to get married and devote her life to revolving around someone else. But in many cases they come back around after a few months to a year, and boy is it sweet when it happens. When that connection is restored its such a wonderful feeling.
In a recent bout of self reflection I also realized that I do need to prepare myself for changes too. Just because those heart to heart friendship connections were once there and now other the participant is focused elsewhere, whether it be new friends, husbands, whatever, doesn't mean the person intended it to be that way and especially didn't intend the resulting hurt feelings. Again, I am a pretty sensitive person. But I'd like to think that learning these things about myself helps improve the situation. As tears streamed down my face watching my friend shoot photos with more the current "bff's" in her beautiful gown and huge on-top-of-the-world smile, my dad tried to tell me that my sensitive self was a good thing because I cared about other people and things. It doesn't always feel like a good thing though. My concern is that a person can be capable of caring too much when its no longer needed?
Then there's this whole message I heard about this deep innate desire within me to care for and connect with others and that it's something God actually designed on purpose. Well what the heck! I guess it outta be a relief of some kind. At the same time though, hmm... I just don't know. I suppose I'll keep chippin away at my frustrating human tendencies towards sensitivity and try to focus on whether I'm actually needed in the situation or what exactly my little part is supposed to be.
And now to liven up all that rambling, because I'm sure it does need it, a photo or two for fun! :)
Cuteness!
More cutness! :)
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